haiz...

so near, but yet so far...

last day of work

i took these pictures not knowing that that day is my last at Kino. Sigh...

yogurt have beef!!!

I was thinking of eating Yoplait yogurt my brother bought and out of curiosity i look at the list of ingredients. Guess what i found?? Gelatin!
Gelatin is made up of the about animal protein. 65 % of the world-wide produced gelatin comes from hidesplits, connective tissue and the bones of cattle. Otherwise pigs serve for source material. Only in Australia, South Africa and New Zealand also sheep are used. The quality of the gelatin is influenced by the source of supply, which in Europe traditionally is mainly from pigs in the case of gelatin for food and medicaments. i also read that gelatin is used in sour creams, soup, gummy bears, sour cream, cream cheese cake icing and frosting, marshmallows, soups, sauces and gravies, canned ham and chicken, corned beef and sausages. Even the outer casing of pills are also made of gelatin! To think all these time i had been unwittingly eating beef.
My god.

frivolous day

i didn't know why i was feeling so tired today... even though i haven't done anything. I went to Chinatown with my mother and went happily shopping. I don't know why, but i juz love China town so much. Maybe because my mom was born there. :) didn't bought much, only a hair pin (influenced by Lucy, Huiling and Yu han's stick pin. Haha!) it's a different though. it's made up of 2 hair slides. nice, will wear it next time i go out. so many nice things, so little money to buy. especially when i'm not working right now. speaking of working... feels so weird. ought to be working today but turn out my last day is on Sat. really miss working miss the people i work with. no one to irritate now. haha... going to find someone to drive up the wall now. :)

lousy... feel so lousy, in need of change

self confidence plummeted, exam results sucked, life felt pretty confusing, meaningless and tiring. like what a friend once told me, sometime or another, you feel like you have fallen into a black hole and it's hard to get up. me? i'm grasping the edge of the hole. yes, i hate complaining too. i'll get over it, as usual, life goes on, but i need a new start. i need to feel in control. need to know i'm doing something useful. need to achieve something...