lousy... feel so lousy, in need of change

self confidence plummeted, exam results sucked, life felt pretty confusing, meaningless and tiring. like what a friend once told me, sometime or another, you feel like you have fallen into a black hole and it's hard to get up. me? i'm grasping the edge of the hole. yes, i hate complaining too. i'll get over it, as usual, life goes on, but i need a new start. i need to feel in control. need to know i'm doing something useful. need to achieve something...